02.08.07
Welcome back
I got a job offer Tuesday. Yea!!! It’s a good position that has a lot of upward mobility…and a whole lot less pay. Can we say scared? I’m taking the position. Not solely because I need a job. I am taking it because of the growth potential, the benefits, and my integrity. A good friend referred me and I promised myself that if I let her refer me I would not sully her name and keep looking for another job simply because of the pay(ok I know who the hell uses ’sully’?…I’ve always wanted to use it just once…lol)
Well of course Wednesday I get a call from another coworker who’d been laid off when I was. He started a contract position with a great agency, making great money and called to tell me that they have plenty of openings that need to be filled. I did ask him to forward me the information because how could I not at least consider the possibility of looking into it, right? And then as I’m writing this, I get a call from another agency who has some positions they want to consider me for. I planned for this but planning and living through is not the same. The temptation is sooooo easy to giving into. The opportunity to make more money is staring me in the face.
There are two things keeping me from investigating these opportunities. Number one being my integrity. As I said I sat and discussed at length wit Twin the pros and cons of allowing my friend to refer me and thanking this position knowing from the start that the pay was lower. I made the decision to stick with it, or should I say to at least give the position and the company a chance. If it doesn’t work because that is right, that would be a reason for me to look elsewhere. But looking elsewhere simply because of pay, I refuse to do. I knew the pay walking in. I’m looking at this pay thing as a lesson from above and an opportunity to fix some things about myself. I had a great salary with my last company. When I took the position I had so many good intentions to start saving money, now that I was in the position to do so. Well I put it off and spent hastily here and there and well, I didn’t save nearly as much as I could or should have. So now I’ve been ‘knocked back down’ so to speak. I have to rework my budgeting and my savings but I’ve figured out how to do all of that and still save, so I’m making a seemingly negative a positive; why? because I have to.
Number two because I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up…lol You would think at 27 (and 11/12ths) that I would have a better idea, but I don’t. The problem is so many things hold my interest and I can’t merge them all together. I hate the idea of being limited to do any one path. And sure I could change midway at some point but hell I don’t quite know that I know where I want to start. The downside to having all the experience I have I guess. Which makes getting a Masters degree challenging because I can’t decide on what to work towards. So I could miss out on an opportunity by taking a contract position for more money, whether than take a pay cut and get into a stable position and have opportunity for growth. I may not know where I want to go exactly, but at least the opportunity will be there.
